Why do I feel so lousy?

Especially every Sunday.

I want you to spend some time with me.

Is it so difficult?

Why do I cry when I miss you?

Bus? You put me in a bus when I was high!

I thought u were going to send me home.

Was it so difficult to tell me you go home with your friends, ONE MORE TIME?

At least I felt safe with my friends.

I m not comparing. I m fucking not comparing.

I just want to spend some time with you.

I don't expect you to report to me.

Thank for pushing me away.

All the more you do that, all the more, I think it's best we leave each other.

It will save you the pressure of being so useless. I am always complaining that you never spend time with me. You will feel at ease. No more complaining.

I am not a nice girl anymore.

Nen tries to save this alot. But I don't want to cry every weekend like this, for you.

Fuck. Nen says you guys are a nice couple, it's just time is a problem.

Nen supports you so much. But you go disappoint her.

Whats my importance in your life?

Shows u everything. And then leaves u to be.

Why does such a thing happen?

i feel like I am damn useless.

Why does a guy show you everything that he can do, and

after a few months he can't?

He's not into me anymore. If thats the case, Fucking tell me.

Dont just i cant make it. Cant call frequently. When u ask me to call you, msg you. say its ok. I get it. I will sms you later. When I sms stuff, you don't msg me. I m like wasting my smses on you.

I feel useless at this point. Cas I m back @ school asking for abit of attention from her guy.

And he says he cant make it, when i told him i cant meet him tomz.

Why show me everything, jusst to deprive me?

Why? U make me like a joke. Seriously?

I am not paranoid. I just evaluated everything. If he thinks I am, then he can leave me. And make things better for the both of us. I am not understanding anymore.

Daily meets to every other day. to wkly. Now guess what. fortnight meets.

I want to be loved and treated the same way I was. Not like I m his friend.