Haiz...*sads*

Haha, Me n B, had the greatest time on saturday...
We went out to JB.
I wen over to his place to meet his parents, then i went to JB with him
roam around there...
makan the fishball soup dammmmm nice... yummy.
And then he went to cut hair... was waitin ... siak ah, like wifey sia...haha
Then We went to get train tickets for his parents, sold out.
then finally we went to city square where i shopped for bajus...and he was like nice la B
take it, y u never take...take la...
Then, we went to find his handphone casing. like tak habis finding. in the end only manage to get his battery..haha, n he was all smiles... then we went to temple.
then went to makan briyani at my fav place.. yummy...hahaha,
fun day..it was so fun...
loved it...
superb...
even he loved it..
love u, b muacks muacks muacks.
But now B working night shift...12hr shift., hardly can meet..
awww....sad

Hey I am once again back...
Haha, latest news...
Mom n dad are coming back.
B is finally getting a shift work...after waiting for so long.
He came over yesterday we ate ate n drank.
We finally did it....
He made me garlic butter yesterday...yummy...
but i havent tried it yet.
gonna miss him loads...
not gonna see him aroun the house anymore.
Haha, his mom been asking him how come I dont call..
Haha... i m going over one of the days to say hi to his mom n dad...
erm, yea.... i think i specialise in dhal n aloo matar...but so not sabzi...
haha...he has tried the aloo matar, mungy(green dhal) n yellow dhal...
Shiok seh....I cook...He loved it....
Haha, no more cookin anymore...mom is coming back...
cant wait to go bck to my old ways of going out, not botherin much...lalalala... *evil laughter*

I cooked for him one night..

and I cooked good!

FINGER LICKIN GOOD....baby!

here are the 2 shots i took.

Saturday evening with love

He came over on a saturday evening.
The first thing i did was to hug him.
I wanted to cry. But i didnt.
Skip the rest, I rested my head on his shoulder.
I said that I m disappointed in myself. Mom told me this and that, but i m doing it...
N suddenly i hugged him and cried. And he was like why r u crying? Why are u taking it so difficultly?
Apparently I was freaked out over some ghostly experience in my house.
And that having no mom scared the shit out of me. And he consoled me.
Told me to switch on morning paath and rehraas sahib in the evening.
Leave the light on during the night.
Stuff like that. I listened and I did.
It really reassured me.
I felt good.
And he cooked for me...He made pasta so professionally...Wow...
delicious Rum arrabiata pasta...yummy...
I ate like no one's biz...OMG! so fillin!
Yum Yum!
Thank u, B

What'z food without chilli,
What'z drink without alcohol,
What'z love without romance,
What'z life without hami

Awww...
*melts*

I love him alot...
He took care of me when i was super drunk in JB with him.
made me sleep...
tucked me into bed.
N kissed me good morning...
brought me down for makan all
den, let me sleep...
haha, forced me to shower wif him
n then shower all...
haha
shiok aa...
Then we went to his cousins place for darufied...
wah lau, my all hallows eves was darufied sia...
anyways, we got abit too intimate ar
so i m abit scared aa...
anyways, everything's gonna be ok...
relax...
haha
n wen i told him, he say its ok...if it happens it happens.
then he sent me the above sms.

:)

Haha,
today, i said i love u.
n he said no.
i said i love u again.
he said no.
then i said if u say no, why r ur hands around me?
take them off...
i got off him...
I went to sit on my own.
Then i say if u dont love me, why r u here? go away la...
then he said tis what u want me to say. i love u?
Me: not sincere.
Him: then what? u want me to go on my knees, n say i love u?
Me: Oh...good plan.
Him: eh not easy to make me kneel, ok? n i m not proposin oso ok!
Me: Okk, then nevermind. Not forcing u to do it, since u dont love me.
We were just talking...n he was playing wif my hand.
And then he said, 'my side no body. ur side'
i shook my head. Normally if we ask ur side n my side, got people/ that means time to super romance...haha, kissing and huggin...haha. this time it was different.
He went down on his knees and said, i love u.n stretched his arms.
My eyes widdened!!! Wat the hell...baby, i was just kidding wif u. OMG.
And he said, 'oi, that one not sincere leh...why u so happy?"
'cas u did when i wanted u to do...awww...i love u so much...u r so random!!!! Awww...
i hugged him...
aww....but its not sincere...
n he is no longer talking bout the future. cas his uncle gave him tis talk about future and all that.
I kinda miss that!
Dammit...
HOw irritating...so used to it...and now he is not talking about it.
haiz...
Love u loads...Rav...

celebrates

We celebrated our first month together.
I was @ his place.
Aww, he is super super sweet...
he hugged, cuddled, kissed, did all wild things (not that kinda)...
n just slept.
I loved when i was using his laptop, he crept up from behind n kissed me...
When i was leaving the room, he pulled me towards him n kissed me.
my my my...wad a romantic rollercoaster ride.
We slept...on the same bed. but we didnt do anything.
When i was sleeping, hehe, i was snoring...he snored too..
but he didnt realise. i dont want to tell him.
Out of a sudden he kissed me on my lips...
awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww....*melts*
i liked that...its so hot!
romantic.

And now he is sick...he doesnt allow me to kiss him...no matter how much i want to...

he will place his lips near mine, n then back off...

irritating right?

he keeps on saying that baby i care for u...i dont want u to get sick...

haiz...i want to get sick...

but i know i wont get sick...haiz..

plans

Is planning into the future something good or something that would cost our hearts to break?
He is plannig honey moons, wedding sia...
wad the...
i know..
its liek just fricking 3 wks...
but i m happy oso la....but scary tho'
And i m happy. ....weeee....
ppl planning sia...
haha, he is like so into me...
but what happens if it all ends...

Him

i have never seena guy so in love wif me.
He makes feel so special.
Is so serious...caring...
irritating at times.
But he captures my heart.
I just like it when he sniffs me.
Hehe, weirdf yea...i know.
Wen we talk, we erally talk..
He plans so many things.
he knws me like i know myself.
hehe...i m not saying those 3words, cas if i say it, i'm afriad that he might jsut walk away from
my life.
I don't want to come across as needy. I want everything to be the way it is.
Hmm, apparently mom likes him...firstly cas he is singaporean.
Secondly he knows alot about stuff.
and thirdly older than me.
He even was planning to get me a gift for our one month anniversary.
a ring...
haha, wad do i get him?
i asked...n he say nothing, ur love is everything to me.
he always say tis,'u love me so much.. but u dun want to say it. and i can feel the love.'
haiz, anyways, he got a job. hehe...
we are planning to save money $100/mth...so that we can plan on a vacation.
We have met 3 days in a row. n today he is startin work, aww...wont meet him.
plan on meeting every wk...so at least i wun get so attached.
He seems to be the all perfect guy.
Every day he asks me,'got eat centrum anot?' its like a vitamin
blody hell made me addcited to it.
at first he gave me a few pills now he plans on giving me a boittle...heee
he plans on soo much...that i m afraid that one of us woul get hurt.
*sighs*

Ra

finally we had the one hot, sweet sexy kiss...
aww...
so sexy just to sit thr...
talk, n talk n talk...
basically we talked more than we kissed...
haha...
it was fun just to talk...
haha...it was really hot...
n wen we got close...
omg...
i felt really nice...
n we were talkin about how he waited for one
girl for 6 yrs..
n then she didnt even bother about his feelings all..
he is just plain hot....sexy...n irritating..
haha

wooo

OMG...
he is so wooing me...
dinners, movies, games, all on him.
aww...how cute...sending me home..
he is so cute and cuddly...like a teddy bear...
He eats my head as equally as i eat his head....
haha...
He's a virgo.
I'm a cancerian.
Aww...
charming...
He treats me like a princess when i m with him.
But we do argue...but its a joking jokin fight.
Haha...He sent me home from yishun...instead of going home separately.
he accompanied me to Baiya's place.
then sent me home.
We hung out @ the bloock.
I've seen his 'i so wanna kiss her' look...
I loved it.
Especially wen we make faces..n he comes close to me.
I so know that he wants to kiss me.
haha...
N he did it yesterday.
Haha. it was wit the oh fuck it man... haha...
he kissed me...
i gave him alot of signs...and finally he caved.
I feel proud...
haha...
But it wasnt that great...
haha...
I m not sharing...I dont kiss and tell.
Haha...
He said i love u today.
N i said the opposite.
I dun want to say i love u.
Cas i m scared...
I dun want to cave in.
But frankly speaking he is what i wanted.
I wanted a teddy, happy go lucky guy, fun loving, so called sporty...
understanding...
well, shudnt say much...
I shall just leave it going as the way it is going.
Now, i've gotta manage my time better.
gym, girls, planning BBQ, clubbing, and guy!
Ciao

FLuffy

Fluffy...
the new man in ma life.*giggles*
Cas he is so what i wanted..
I wanted to argue wit a guy, who is argumentative.
Want to talk like no one's business...Gossip wif him.
Hehe...
He is tall and big. Flufffyyyy...like ma gabby.
And plus he is a singaporean.
Awww....He tries to be romantic and all that.
And i met him thrice already...made him walk at least 7 bus stops already...haha
n he held my hand today...
It was like the same way, i saw my cousins date their gals..
The ayo...why u like tht. why u dunno how to behave...
Omg, u a...so gross, u noe
mcm the fighting...hehe. but still there is some attractiion going on.
He wants to bring me to JB rebond my hair...color...n he want to sponsor all tat.
Plan to go KL with me. sponsor that trip oso.
Go by ECP, watch the sunset...Aww...charming aint it?
Hehe...but i always foil his romanticness...*giggles* i like it...
I like seeing his espression.
And then best thing, he missing me, after not seeing me for 4days.
And time passing by so fast wen we are together...
Hehe...
He is my teddy...
Charmer..
*melts*
We are planning an outing tis saturday.
He treats me like a princess...
but i m trying hard not to fall for him.
But somehow i do.
But he tells me to be realistic, 'if u have a better man than me, by all means go for it.'
He held my hand today when we were walking...My heart was like beating slightly faster...
But when he tries to lean forward to scare me, somehow i feel like he is trying to lean in for a kiss.
My heart beats even faster...Thoughts run wild. But what do i do?
I dont want to be so committed so fast.
It scares me...
I so feel like calling him, My baby.
but i try not to name him.
He calls me his Big mac.
N wen i call him small mac, he says change it..so i changed it to fluffy?
hehe
hmm, teddy sounds better, aint it?
hehehe...well...cant wait fr our next meeting...

:D

I don't noe what to think of u after she told me.
I feel like u r a bastard n what not.
I wasted my time and energy on u.
thanks for saying u do not know me.
Cas frm there, I know that u were so not worth thinking about.
People who are worth my thoughts should be in my life.
u aint part of it.

Cas of u, I meet sweet, charmers.
Cas of u, i found my new time passion, gyming, and clubbing.
Cas of u, I m who I am.
I don't tink of changing myself.

Weeeeeeeeeeeeeee....
Victory is mine!!!
Muah haha...I dun pay fr movies. I dun pay for food.
The men do it for me...


Lalalalalalala

P.S: I love you. I love him. I love her. I love them. I love us.
Holler

leave me alone

Why does he stil come into my mind!
BEHEN CHOT!
leave me alone!
why do i dream of u?
why do u come into my mind!?
u son of a bitch!
u idiot, gundu...
thanks for letting me knw that u
rr not into me?
fuck u!
U like ur chinky friend...ooo...
i did wht i cud to make u happy, proud of me..
but it was never enough...
I m gonna make myself so hot! that u r gonna drool....
then i m gonna screw u the same u did wit me...
u asshole!
wht do u fink of urself!/
ARGH....
yep...i dun know u...
frankly speaking.

I dont miss u, I mmiss the old u!
yep...change is ever changing...
but u cant blame me to miss that.

I got to know that...seriously that maybe falling in love
is not in my strength....
flirting is in my blood...
crushing on people is in my lifestyle...
leaving it this way is the best...
falling in love, a proper relationship pisses me off after wht u did...
Simple, n easy...
guys do us, girls, a favour...break up when u know u r suppose to.
dont pick up our phones...avoid us...let us live our lives without u...
it pisses us off, when u want to break up n then, u r again, talking to us...
makes us dissect every single thing again n again...

distant

y a person so far can make u feel like that?
he makes me feel like a princess.
makes me feel like im the only one.
despite being far, he makes me feel like i m
near him.
i smile when he say all those sweet stuff...
my heart skips a bit.
the romantic dinner that he is planning
on new yrs...
lolz...
telling me things that make me feel
pretty...


It's all fake. and i know it.
But why am i falling for him?

I am starting to date. Dating my friend of 2yrs...
I don't see anything coming out of it...
we hug. We kid around. We talk about our stuff and all...
but i dont feel anything... Actually I find him weird...
When there is death scene in FD 4(3D) he laughs. Odd, ain't it

ONe thing that is nice, he pays for everything...my movie tickets...dinner. lunch...
Wow...who wouldnt want such a stable man? ME!

been awake for almost 27hrs, i wanted to go home, he asked me to accompany him to eat...N wanted to sleep. And then When i wanted to go out. He ( was leaning on the glass panel), jst hugged me, and didnt let go. then I just hugged him back...n whispered do u know u are mean...ANd he laughed...I turned to him, he looked at me...oooo...i cud feel some tension thr. I wanted to kiss him. So did he..But i looked away...n then he let go when my stop came...n told me u cn go...n he was lkike laughing so i dint knw...
but he really didnt want me to go home.
How odd was tht.

But i don't feel anything for him, if i do...its very sexual...
which is not good....
Geez...I'm getting bored of him also...
everyone says that maybe somethings will come out of it, after a period of time.
I dont think so...
I think he also thinks so...

And She was right, we do behave like love aaj kaal...haha

Nevertheless

It happened.
Nevertheless, it happened for the best.
He say i didn't know him that well.
Probably I didn't.
N thanks to him, I realise that maybe i should
just have fun. Flirt around...
Nevertheless everyone has been telling me that he's going to come back into my life.
Nevertheless, I think otherwise. He is not.
cas he knws my answer.
All of them do.
I don't miss him. I just miss who he was.
I miss him that way...that all.
I really do.
If i say i didn't love him, who would i be fooling?

I miss everything we had with one another.
Love quotes i find appealin now.
Very...
I don't care about it anymore.
I want to get my own life.
I try to make myself hate him, but i cant.
Probably once again, its fr the best that we aren't together.
I don't think i can fall in love with someone else the way i did with him.
i just get used to someone.
but not love.
my heart is closed for love, but open for flirting...
i miss the tomboy me.
i do..

woo me!

woo me back?
can't u?
how difficult can it be?
hmmm... shouldn't hope much?
u dun want it...
not a relationship....frustratin!!!
i loved u...always did

emmotional dumping ground

Wat the hell is going on with this month?
everyone is either pissing me off, or is pissed off with me.
What's this month?
BTW, i m not PMS-y.
I was fricking coolheaded until i heard something.
I was snapped @ yesterday cas someone had a misunderstanding.
Y is that person allowed to talk in a high pitch tone when that person is pissed.
And I m not.
When I talk in a high pitch tone, I m pissing that person off...
apparently, 'i m yelling on the phone'
When I wanna share something about my day, i get a fricking look, like, 'do i look like i care? y is she even talking to me about this? i dun understand why is she so worked up about it?'
I won something, i dont get a congras...but a sarcasm remark like yea yea...u guys lost even though u tie...
But when someone wins, I m fricking congragulating the person about it...u did great and all.
When I m cranky, I don't tell the person, i wun talk to u, cas i m in a bad mood.
When that person is pissed off, i m not allowed to continue talking cas it would irritate that person.
When that person calls, i go n meet that person, no matter how pissed off or how tired i m.
But when i want to meet, i'm busy, i m going out with so n so.
When that person has got assignments n project stuff n sports things going on, he wont meet me. cas he is busy...trying to find time for me. but he can go JB. when he goes JB, i ask something, i dun get it. but when someone else doesn't even bother to ask that person. he gets it willing.
Wow...
Looking @ this, where is my stand?
Worse than a friend. bloody hell, when i go JB, i get what that person wants without even asking. When I do that, That person matters to me, but apparently that 'someone' matters to that fool more. I think the world of him.N he thinks of nothing of me.
If i m not at some place on time of place i meet, i m late. even though its a few mins...
but if that someone is late, its ok...just 10mins wat, u always late one wat...
I dont mind hearing it once in a while...but hearing it every time i tell that person that...i have to be UNDERSTANDING.

Now i understand something, giving person time wouldn't do anything.
u need to settle it.
If that person shows attitude, it means that person is apparently busy.
when i show, that person says, i was pissed off yesterday.

What do u tell a person by doing all this?
What is ur establishment?
After being pissed off for so long, one of my guy friends told me, 'simple, he wants to break up but he doesn't want it to be his fault, or him initiating the break up.
fuck it..
everytime this happens, its like a cut in my heart.

...

How come a guy can be so into a first month anniversary n subsequently forget about!?
It irritates me somuch. That we are not closes.
Haiz...how irritating.
He is in camp...
n i m stuck at home...
with wedding to attend to. and I want him to accompany me.
But he is not...
I m going alone.
How pathetic...
I want him to accompany me.
I miss him. When he came over two nights ago, we just sat in front of the TV, not talking. N he said, he wanted to rest, he slept on my thighs.
I want to talk...But he was too tired...
HAIZ....i miss him...I wanna meet him... :-(


Now, Captain's ball.
I m so into it..So wanna win.

WOMAN ARE NOT SICK

Stop saying that woman are sick.
We so are not.
Men are so much like idiots.
They do not like their woman going out
with their guy friends.
No contacts with ex bf...fine, then why do u keep in touch with urs?

Get a life...
u should.