HIM

Why does everyone ask me where is he? Has he come online? Did he tell you this or did he tell u tht!? I'm sick and tired of hearing this. If he wants to come online, he can jolly well come online...if he doesn't, i m cool with it... It's tiring to wait for someone online, when u have no f...ing idea if they are gonna be online... Wht the hell have i gotten myself into!?

Why didn't i use my damn brain? Online relationships suck! Firstly, it's fake, online relationship...Secondly, you've to wait to talk to the person, unlike a real relationship, u can jolly well call the person. Meet the person... Talking about meeting... I m going over to his town, and he knws tht...Guess wht he says, i m not sure if i m going to be here when u come down, I might be outta town... Wow...if u dont wanna meet me, just f...ing hell say it! I'm cool..End it... End this frickin misery that u are causing me to feel. I dont want to feel tht anymore... Leave me....

When he's online, i dont want to say any of this...I just wanna enjoy the moment... that he is online....He's hardly gonna be online... So let him be...online... I know i m being very selfish and all...but this is me...HE knows that i get pissed off when he's not online... but now...Wow...

I dont give two shits if he has a gal in that town... Wanna know why!? ITS JUST F...ING ONLINE....I cant say much....i m spending the minority part of his time...unlike his so-called gf there....This is so pissing off...

caz i wanted to send him something for Valentine's day, but he said people would talk...traditional thoughts and all... i was like cool... he doesnt bother to explain to me about his life...he just lemme tell him about my day...that's it! he doesnt share anything about his life...


Thnxs for making me feel this way....But wht to do, this heart is still so bent on loving u despite hating u so f...ing much!!!!