distant

y a person so far can make u feel like that?
he makes me feel like a princess.
makes me feel like im the only one.
despite being far, he makes me feel like i m
near him.
i smile when he say all those sweet stuff...
my heart skips a bit.
the romantic dinner that he is planning
on new yrs...
lolz...
telling me things that make me feel
pretty...


It's all fake. and i know it.
But why am i falling for him?

I am starting to date. Dating my friend of 2yrs...
I don't see anything coming out of it...
we hug. We kid around. We talk about our stuff and all...
but i dont feel anything... Actually I find him weird...
When there is death scene in FD 4(3D) he laughs. Odd, ain't it

ONe thing that is nice, he pays for everything...my movie tickets...dinner. lunch...
Wow...who wouldnt want such a stable man? ME!

been awake for almost 27hrs, i wanted to go home, he asked me to accompany him to eat...N wanted to sleep. And then When i wanted to go out. He ( was leaning on the glass panel), jst hugged me, and didnt let go. then I just hugged him back...n whispered do u know u are mean...ANd he laughed...I turned to him, he looked at me...oooo...i cud feel some tension thr. I wanted to kiss him. So did he..But i looked away...n then he let go when my stop came...n told me u cn go...n he was lkike laughing so i dint knw...
but he really didnt want me to go home.
How odd was tht.

But i don't feel anything for him, if i do...its very sexual...
which is not good....
Geez...I'm getting bored of him also...
everyone says that maybe somethings will come out of it, after a period of time.
I dont think so...
I think he also thinks so...

And She was right, we do behave like love aaj kaal...haha

Nevertheless

It happened.
Nevertheless, it happened for the best.
He say i didn't know him that well.
Probably I didn't.
N thanks to him, I realise that maybe i should
just have fun. Flirt around...
Nevertheless everyone has been telling me that he's going to come back into my life.
Nevertheless, I think otherwise. He is not.
cas he knws my answer.
All of them do.
I don't miss him. I just miss who he was.
I miss him that way...that all.
I really do.
If i say i didn't love him, who would i be fooling?

I miss everything we had with one another.
Love quotes i find appealin now.
Very...
I don't care about it anymore.
I want to get my own life.
I try to make myself hate him, but i cant.
Probably once again, its fr the best that we aren't together.
I don't think i can fall in love with someone else the way i did with him.
i just get used to someone.
but not love.
my heart is closed for love, but open for flirting...
i miss the tomboy me.
i do..

woo me!

woo me back?
can't u?
how difficult can it be?
hmmm... shouldn't hope much?
u dun want it...
not a relationship....frustratin!!!
i loved u...always did

emmotional dumping ground

Wat the hell is going on with this month?
everyone is either pissing me off, or is pissed off with me.
What's this month?
BTW, i m not PMS-y.
I was fricking coolheaded until i heard something.
I was snapped @ yesterday cas someone had a misunderstanding.
Y is that person allowed to talk in a high pitch tone when that person is pissed.
And I m not.
When I talk in a high pitch tone, I m pissing that person off...
apparently, 'i m yelling on the phone'
When I wanna share something about my day, i get a fricking look, like, 'do i look like i care? y is she even talking to me about this? i dun understand why is she so worked up about it?'
I won something, i dont get a congras...but a sarcasm remark like yea yea...u guys lost even though u tie...
But when someone wins, I m fricking congragulating the person about it...u did great and all.
When I m cranky, I don't tell the person, i wun talk to u, cas i m in a bad mood.
When that person is pissed off, i m not allowed to continue talking cas it would irritate that person.
When that person calls, i go n meet that person, no matter how pissed off or how tired i m.
But when i want to meet, i'm busy, i m going out with so n so.
When that person has got assignments n project stuff n sports things going on, he wont meet me. cas he is busy...trying to find time for me. but he can go JB. when he goes JB, i ask something, i dun get it. but when someone else doesn't even bother to ask that person. he gets it willing.
Wow...
Looking @ this, where is my stand?
Worse than a friend. bloody hell, when i go JB, i get what that person wants without even asking. When I do that, That person matters to me, but apparently that 'someone' matters to that fool more. I think the world of him.N he thinks of nothing of me.
If i m not at some place on time of place i meet, i m late. even though its a few mins...
but if that someone is late, its ok...just 10mins wat, u always late one wat...
I dont mind hearing it once in a while...but hearing it every time i tell that person that...i have to be UNDERSTANDING.

Now i understand something, giving person time wouldn't do anything.
u need to settle it.
If that person shows attitude, it means that person is apparently busy.
when i show, that person says, i was pissed off yesterday.

What do u tell a person by doing all this?
What is ur establishment?
After being pissed off for so long, one of my guy friends told me, 'simple, he wants to break up but he doesn't want it to be his fault, or him initiating the break up.
fuck it..
everytime this happens, its like a cut in my heart.

...

How come a guy can be so into a first month anniversary n subsequently forget about!?
It irritates me somuch. That we are not closes.
Haiz...how irritating.
He is in camp...
n i m stuck at home...
with wedding to attend to. and I want him to accompany me.
But he is not...
I m going alone.
How pathetic...
I want him to accompany me.
I miss him. When he came over two nights ago, we just sat in front of the TV, not talking. N he said, he wanted to rest, he slept on my thighs.
I want to talk...But he was too tired...
HAIZ....i miss him...I wanna meet him... :-(


Now, Captain's ball.
I m so into it..So wanna win.

WOMAN ARE NOT SICK

Stop saying that woman are sick.
We so are not.
Men are so much like idiots.
They do not like their woman going out
with their guy friends.
No contacts with ex bf...fine, then why do u keep in touch with urs?

Get a life...
u should.